Hi Caroline and Roz
Your posts about itching and post-surgery pain have sent me back into my diaries (which I expanded into an unpublished book) to see what I recorded after my first big operation (8 June 2005). For your amusement (?) or just reassurance here is an extract -
"Friday 1 July 2005
Once more, it was an early start to the day for me. I had already put the pots and pans away from last night's washing up session as I sat down at the keyboard just after 5 am. The sky held great promise for a fine day. In the bulletin, I was pleased to report that I slept in a nearly horizontal position on Thursday night. I had decided it was time to dispense with the myriad pillows that enabled me to sleep in a semi-reclined posture.
After about six hours sleep in total, my slumbers were ended by some pains in my back. I emerged bleary eyed to shuffle to the bathroom and then onwards to the kitchen make a drink of warm peppermint cordial. The latter had been a useful weapon in the locker with which to dislodge trapped wind ñ a mild condition made quite painful by the bruising to my innards.
The pain management regime was moving gradually into another phase as the inter-connective tissue started to rebuild and the swelling around my scar tissue slowly subsided. I was much more aware of the sensitivity in the skin on my belly. Describing it to Julie, I said that the slight movement of a T shirt against it, as I moved about, produced a sensation like sandpaper being dragged over a locally anaesthetised area of my body. It wasn't painful as such but it wasn't comfortable either. I could sense that the severed nerve endings caused by the incision were beginning the slow process of growing back and, based on previous experience with deep cuts, I recognised that this would take up to two years for the skin to feel normal again.
The discomfort was compounded by the bruising in my lower ribs, the sharp, referred pain I got in my back and the sensation of tightness along the scar line. These were all healing pains, I reasoned, and I welcomed them to my world, though with a tinge of regret that they had all arrived at the same time. Just to top off the party, there were the wind related bouts of discomfort as well.
As with the diagnosis of cancer, I decided, I could decide to give in to the pain and feel sorry for myself (which could lead to a self-fulfilling, pain increasing spiral of depression) or I just had to view pain as a means of keeping in touch with how my body was reacting and just accepting it. When the pain was at the lower end of the spectrum, the positive approach was fairly easy to sustain but it needed a much greater strength of mind to cope with pain at the top end of the scale."
So, Caroline and Roz, all your current discomfort can be attributed to the signs of healing. Don't forget that your surgery represents an enormous shock and challenge to the system.
Maybe I should put my book up as a resource on this site? Would people read it and more importantly would it be helpful?
Best wishes
Tim |